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| Well hay guyz this week has been the worstever!!i had to go to the funeral of a good friend TONY LOT. my week has been hellother than when i met this totaly awesome chick I LOVE YOU RACHEL. me and miguel are having huge problems weve been fighting everyday and it gets worse and worse eveytime it seems like hes getting closer to hitting me!!i know i shouldnt think that butit gets kinda scary when he grabs my faceand punches things not even to inches away from me. okay well hers the story on thursday after school i was really tired and not feeling well hunters being an ass and brandi keeps making comments about me PMSing so i got pissed and told miguel to take me homeand pick up my liuttle sister so he did. i slept for about 3 hours and wokeup and called miguel and when i asked him to pick me up he got upset like askedhim to jump off a bridgeor somthing and that kibnda hurt me so i said never mind and when he asked if i was sure i said yeah and hung up and then i tried to call mel and she didnt pick up so i called brad after tlking tohim for about 10minutes we decided to go see a movie ar hang out for a little while since he was leaving for good in june.well miguel didnt like that cause i didnt call him and tell him so he showed up at putt-putt and triedto start shit with brad and i told him to stop so he leftto go get my sister and when he came back he got pissed at me and he backed me into a fence and started yelling at me and telling me everything that was wrong with me as if i didnt know. too make a long story short he took me home insted of brad ( o and he found out where i was by making me tell my stepmom and then asking her stalker i think so) and when we got to my house he decided ha had to remind me of how every guy that i have ever dated and been with and loved have all used me once again as if i didnt know so its been like that for the past three goingon four days i am seriousl contemplatng leaving him for good!! so im all kinds of lostand confused i need my best friend but i dont know who that is because all the people who i thought were have told my secrets to the one person i didnt want to know the three of you should know who you are i still love you know hwo even though i know he dosent love me.i need help and the only people ive got are VJ and RACHEL i llove you guyz never forget it
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1. I got a girl pregnant when i was 13
2. I've never kissed a guy outside my family. I don't mean like makeout but just kiss on the cheek or something. I'm almost done with seventh grade.
3. the them the father of 7 abortions
4. I pretend I'm happy when I'm really not. I can hide it pretty well too.
5. i love her with all of my heart and she dosen even like Me but i keep waiting even tho i said i gave up
6. sometimes i stalk people i like...
7. I kissed my boyfriends brother.
8. As hard as I try to get her outta my head, I can't, even tho I say i already did
9. I made out with my bestfriends boyfriend.
10. sometimes i think internet relationships can affect my entire world.
11. I look through my dads stuff when he isnt home
12. I knew he never loved Me.
13. them confused about everything, the them not sure what to do next, my heart is telling Me 2 many things, and when I stop and take a look at it all, it makes everything worse. Them tired of shedding tears for soemthing that May not be real.
14. I hate knowing that them not good enough.
15. I hate knowing that them either never enough way too much for him to stand.
y'..i'm in love wit some1 i ever met and i don't care wat people say bout it.
17. I'd rather cry over every boy i never meet than be single for the rest of my life.
18. them in love with a guy that i dont even know.
y9..i'm in love with someone from missiouri.
20. Sometimes I think that I dont deserve HIM.
21. Sometimes i fear that the right person isnt out there, or if he is I won't find him & he wont find Me.
22. Sometimes i think the rumors are true..
23. I still question if I love him or not, even tho I know I do.
24. i wish i was single
25. I dont know whether them straight, or bi.
2'..gay guys turn Me on.
27. I cut myself to get attention
28..i lost my virginity with a 20 yr old ive never met and i was to drunk to remember anything.
29..I lost my virginity on Easter.
30. I hate my best friend
31..i once had 5 girl friends at one time and i didint care about them.
32. i onet to beat up my best friend lennies friend up
33. i want to kill my best friend
34. them jealous of my best friend
35. fighting has never made the pain go away, but its pain that makes Me fight
36. I fear that i will never fall in true love...
37. i love him so much but he makes Me so mad all the time.
38. i'm bi but a like gurlz way more than guyz
39. i eat when them bored then tell ppl i dont know why it not losing weight:.P
40. them bi n i have a crush on mi boyfriendz x gurl friend
41.
it ya2..syuit!!! i think i'm bisexual!
43.
yaya..i'm scared to loose him, and the them not even with him.
45. i want to fxxx mi boyfriend n ive never even kissed him.
46.
ya"..I havnt had sex in 2 years and them lonly as hell.
48..i wuz raped, got pregnant, n had an abortion.
49.
50. after all she's done and said, i'de still take her back for some reason, but i'm not sure y
51. The man that I am absolutely in love with is married.
52. i like getting drunk and kissing people
53. them pretty sure them bi
54. i might be lesbian
55. i h8 mi life but i pretend 2 b ok wen i talk 2 {HIM}
56. I say that I'm better off single. In reality I'm the lonliest person you'll ever know.
57.
58. I like someone I shouldn't and it sucks ass
59.
60.
61. TO I cheated....tshiche
62. i'm saving my virginity by choice
63.
64.
65. I want to be with him but he doesn't want to be with Me
66.
67.
68.
69.
70.
"y..I had sex last weekend and now want more
72. I want to be with him forever, but I'm scared he doesn't love Me as much as he says he does, but them afraid if I bring it up, it might turn him away because he might think I don't trust him...
73.
74.
"shch..I use to like rap music. it sucked
76.
77. I think my friend is lesbian
78.
79. I'm afraid either Me or my fiance might be infertile cuz we've been trying to get pregnant for over a year and nothings happened yet: ' (
80..sometimes i wish i was her
81.
82.
by 8e..Im in love with 3 people
84.
85.
86. I had a one night stand with my boss.
87. them not stuck up or in love with my self, but i think them a good lookin guy and a very nice guy, but why cant i get a date for prom or even a girlfriend at all?????? I know for a fact that there are several girls who think them attractive or even like Me, and yet i cant get with any chicks... to all girls, if u like a guy.....let him know cuz he probably likes u too but u girlz are so hard to read and yall never know wut u want that the dude isnt going to risk gettin embarassed since chicks are so hard to read! if u like Me give Me a sign!!!!!! 06
88.
89..i still totally in like whd dis one girl buh she doesnt know i exist ne more..lol as if its hard to guess who dis is whd ma type of typin..wahevers
90.
91. i don't really like my best friend
92.
93..i strip for ppl on the mii webcamm
94.
95.
96..i used to be anerexic and bulimic
97.
98. I like my boyfriend's bestfriend.
99. I lie on stupid things like these.
100. i want to hook up with some guy who has a girlfriend.
101. them still in love wit my ex
102
y0e..I love to eat snatch
104. i really really wanna break up wit him, but i dont wanna hurt his feelings and i have another guy in mind
105.
106.
107.
108.
109..i love him so much. but he's a jerk
110.
111.
112.
113. i pretend its all ok, but in reality, i want to run screaming away from all these people that i pretend to love
114.
115.
116. The one person i truly loved broke my heart used Me and then told Me to die twice in my life!
117.
118.
119.
120. I slept with someone my best friend used to date. I also slept with a guy a friend of mine still cares for and if she found out it would break her heart. I don't regret it.
121. i cut myself so i can feel some control
122.
123.
124. i hurt myself
y2'..I always Act happy when i'm dying inside, so i hurt myself
127.
128.
129..i lik this one dude, i no, SHOCKING!!
ye0..tyueres 2 gus i really like but i dont no witch one i want more
131..i love him but i dont think he loves Me
132.
133. i want to break his heart, like he broke mine, even when we were together.
134.
135.
136. i madeout w my best friend's bro and almost slept w him
137.
138. I used to have this friend that took naked pics of Me! and i loved the attention.
139. I cheated on my bf with 2 different peeps
140. I LOVE A and I Love B,Im With A ,But I Want B, But B dosent want Me. Which Do You Follow Your Head(A) or Your Heart(B).
141. them gay
142.
143.
144. i like my best friends brother.
145..i sometimes wish i could be put in the position of saving someone i liked. liiiiike maybe she`.s doing something baddd under peer pressure, and i could get her out of it. or sometimes i want that bad thing to happen to Me, just so i can have more attention.;' [ that`.s so evull.
yya'..I still haven`.t made out with anyone, and i`.m in 8th grade. But that`.s partly because i`.ve always "liked" people. That`.s not good enough, and lately i`.m getting sick of it.
yya"..I SEEM TO ALWAYS BE HAPPY AND I ACTUALLY AM YOU SHOULD ALWAYS SEE THE POSITIVE SIDE TO LIFE IT REALLY HELPS
by yya8..im bi -sexual
149. ive never made out w a girl and them in 9th
150. i still love my ex girl friend, we are friends but i still love her
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| "call us wetbacks or beaners que son puros ruidos you can't calm us down you can't keep us quiet you pass H.R. 4437 I swear to god we will riot. we may be humble we may be poor but go against our people we won't hesitate to start civil war. we may not have papers but we still pay our taxes without our feria the pinche U.S collapses! I call out to mi gente to stick up for the brown, you ain't kicking us out, we're sticking around!!! REPOST DIS IF UR A TRU MEXICAN" | | |
| How emo are you? Add up the statements that apply to you.
[x] I listen to Dashboard Confessional
[x] I have cried myself to sleep
[ ] I have woken up crying
[x] have cried over an ex
[x] i have cried in a corner
[x] I have cried next to a window
[x] I own a billion sweaters
[ ] I own an argyle sweater
[x] almost NONE of them fit properly
[x] i wear chick pants
[x] I wear eyeliner
[x] my eyeliner is black...and ONLY black
[x] My friend gave me eyeliner for Christmas
[ ] I cried out of joy when I got that eyeliner
[ ] I have all 12 myspace pictures
[ ] most of them are of my head in wierd lighting, are black and white or are of me in weird hats/fancy clothes
[ ] i.type.like.this.sometimes
[x] I've written songs about a breakup
[x] I still cry when I read the lyrics
[ ] I play guitar
[ ] It's almost ALWAYS acoustic
[ ] I keep a dream journal
[x] I have at least one stuffed animal on my bed at all times
[ ] I change my default pic often
[ ] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringer
[ ] I cry every time I hear it, bc its one of my favorite songs
[ ] I dont personally know 99.99999 percent of my myspace/xanga friends
[x] Nobody understands the real me
[x] I have dyed my hair black, blue or deep red
[ ] I am a straightedge
[ ] I dont hang out with non-edges
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my haircolor
[ ] Real punks tend to beat me up alot
[x] I am a camera Whore
[x] I love to have girls do my hair and make-up
[ ] There is a phrase such as "music is my boyfriend" on my myspace
[x] i love to give and recieve hugs
[ ] i hate germs
[x] I have been to a therapist
[x] It was because my mom didnt understand me
[x] I am self-concious all the time
[ ] like the way I look when Im crying
[x] I dont do sports.
[ ] I just stand around during Punk/Ska concerts
[ ] I cant skank
[x] I have borrowed clothing from a member of the opposite sex before
[x] I know that Emo stands for emotional
[x] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[x] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] I am Gay or Bisexual
[x] I spend so much time on myspace/xanga that I know HTML
[ ] One of my myspace/xanga pictures is of me crying
[x] My best feature is my hair
[ ] My special talent is to be able to "emo flip" my hair
[ ] One of my myspace/xanga pictures is of me making a kissy face
[ ] I almost never spend more than two dollars on a shirt
[ ] I reapply my eyeliner up to 200 times a day
[x] I have wished I was never born
[ ] "caring is creepy" means something to me
[ ] I know who that song is by
[ ] I just started listening to their cd
[ ] And now I'm crying
[ ] I know that Sunny Day Real Estate is not a real estate agency
[ ] I have their cd
[x] Guys with mohawks are hot
[ ] I dislike animals which are bigger than me
[ ] This includes large dogs
[ ] I have never gotten a detention
[ ] Mostly because I cried my way out of it
[ ] My screen Name has X's in it
[x] My Screen Name has the words bleed, tears, dream in it
[ ] My screen name has a combination of those words in it
[x] I write my own poetry and songs
[x] I never get around to putting a melody or chords to it though
[x] I have stayed home from school because I was depressed
[x] Valentines day makes me think of how awful my life really is
[x] Black band t's
[ ] Saucony Shoes
[x] or Converse
[ ] in a color other than black?
[ ] In a bright color?
[x] messenger bag?
[ ] adorned with pins?
[ ] patches?
[ ] kept on the bag with safety pins?
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] I am friends with "peta2" on xanga/myspace
[ ] i check my myspace/xanga everyday
[x] I can take any word and quote a song with that word in it
[ ] I say goodbye on the internet with one of these <3
[x] I have sung "screaming infedelities"
[ ] I change my xanga/myspace constantly
[ ] I am welling up with tears
YAY i guess im not as emo as i thought i was but im still pretty damn emo.....o well | | |
| HELLO!! im at Miguels sisters house right now hangin out with miguel were lookin up cars and listenin to music ive been okay lately next month on the 16th it will be a year im sooo happy!!!!! but yeah i get to go to AKON.. it hink...if i have the money. but ima go with Porky YAYAY!! miguel is going to but hes going with hunter so yeah but anyways i found out that i have to do summer school because i failed th first semester of english and that sux major ass o wait i just remebered i might not have to go to Iowa if i go to summer school YAY!!! gotta go pick up sister BUH BYEZ!!
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I adopted a cute lil' batman fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
I adopted a cute lil' death fetus
from Fetusmart!and hes going to kill you MWAHAHAHAHA.....Hooray fetus! 
